it's the hardest part for us, at least for me...
our stories and memories, we can't any longer use our fingers to count it
time, it's just like just fooling us around....
this night, i realize, a thing, that i never want to realise..
i know it'll hurt so much, not only for you, dear, for me, it's even harder
you'll never know how hard years i've passed, never stop trying to hide my feelings away..
you won't understand, things i've done to cure my broken heart
yeaaa, actually, it's no need for you to know, for sure, i don't wanna let you feel the same as i feel, either.
but, i think, i've already been tired of waiting
i've been too patient waiting for your love
4 years, lots of things have changed, but, just look at us,
we're still the same, as 4 years ago.
no matter how hard, i try to hide everything, to stop being lacked on you,
the feelings never change. It's all you,
4 years ago, last year, last month, and even today,
maybe it's me, who have been a fool for 4 years,
it's me, who never stop begging for your love
and there's time, when i thinked, that you'll be mine,
when my mind stupidly said that "hey, all your dreams 'bout her will come true, soon!"
i was full of happiness, my best of friends, also cheered for me, for us.
i thought, i've already won this game..
but i forgot a little thing, God never wants us to love someone, more than HIM.
this love has been so deep, it's real, it's not only a tree with leaves hanging on it, it already has had fruit on it.
once again, destiny has been succesfully fooled us.
i'm not trying to blame destiny, God, or time... but i just don't want to understand,
why everything about me and you never be a reality
time's just like never stop making us meet, and fall in love,
but it never gives us any single chance to be together, as someone we've dreamed on since long time ago.
as loud as the rain outside, i wanna scream, i want to blame everyone, everything that i can be blamed.
it hurts, a lot, for me,
i'm sorry for all the things i've done.
it happens now, it's better, please for the last time, believe me.
let's just stop it now. Someday, when we're truly destined , we will find our way
we will change from stones, into wind. we won't let these differences take us apart.
but for now, it's the best for us, maybe you'll find your true happiness,
with or without me, i'll be fine, at least, you don't have to cry, like you did this night.
you know, dear? it makes a bigger hole in my heart :(
so, be fine, cheer up, wipe your tears, make lotta smiles, please promise me.
without me, you have to be you, you who had made my days this last 4 years.
let me, please let me, stare on you, don't hate me, i'm begging you.
the wind now is too strong for us, holding hands doesn't make us stronger, a hug doesn't make us can see this problem from a better side
allow me to remember every single thing about us,
nicks, jokes, hugs, fights, sacrifices, even your crying face
coz nothing left, there's nothing else that i can remember, except those things
give me a time, to make up my life, my mind, and start a new life, without you.
do things as i do, will you, dear?
keep our memories, never forget every second of our togetherness, don't let the others know those things hehe :)
maybe someday, it'll make us stronger, yeah maybe, when time once again come to play around us
live happily! i will, too! :D
-if today's the last day of my life, i want to tell you that deep in my heart, your name still remains, and i will never ever forget it, trust me -D *with changes*
---dedicated to M&D. i lv y'all, i believe, someday, God will give ya a better way of happiness. Keep strong. I <3>
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