It's like I don't want you to be mine, but I always want to stay by your side. I think of you almost every time, but I hold myself not to fall in love with you. I can't stop smiling the day after you came to my dream, but sometimes I pray that you'll let "US" go.
You're the air I'll never catch though I need you to breathe, though I feel you. We are free just like thousand birds and clouds in the sky, we try to find our ways, and we've taken different ways so that I always hold myself before falling for you for any further. They may say that it's not a fault for falling in love. Indeed. But when you know that it's not gonna work? When you understand that having each other as we're having today is already the top of everything? Yea, it's already the peak of the mountain, another step, then I will fall for sure, so the only thing left is just trying to be grateful though we end up like this.
I hate how time controls my life, they say the control is in my hand, but it's not. And falling for you in this kind of situation will only lead us to goodbye, and we'll lose everything. I hold myself not to miss those all-night-long discussions, the way you always want to stay beside me, the way I 'read' you as the first thing I did in the morning, and the last thing I did in the night. I know now why you confessed so soon back in the days, because you know that it will be hard if you confess now. Feel and touch each other only through all those emoticons is somehow pathetic.
Thing is, I wasn't and am not into you. So, God, maybe you should give me another paper? 'cause I don't know what should I do with this blank paper. I'm too afraid that my line will ruin everything. I'm done. Stay white, my blank paper. You always have my prayers :)
Let's just be grateful for whatever happened, happens, and will happen. Let's catch our highest dreams, and be there for each other. Throw away the 'love' 'like' things away, and stay with me as my best friend. Take care :)
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