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You wrote a song for me as my birthday present. Couldn't help but staring and smiling seeing you sang and played the guitar for me. But the next day, you just left. A piece of paper laid on the table. I found and realized it was the last part of the song you sang the day before. And words that's written under the torn paper made my tears melted. It said:

"save it up only for you so that this song can never be complete. I'll come back and get this someday. As the song will never be done without the last part, I won't let my life ends before I come and find YOU, the last and most precious part of my life."

My soul went away right after you left. I lost my mind, couldn't remember whether I was still breathing or not. The little note succesfully brought me back to a sunny day on a summer when we're having a cup of tea together. I told you:

"I really wish I can be the last for everyone I love and have in this life. It may called 'the last' but actually, without 'the last' thing, I can't call my whole life is complete."

You see? The sky will be just blue without clouds, thunder, star, moon, or sun. A party will be flat without the guests, and a paper, will remain white until we color it. I don't mean to say that the 'just blue' sky isn't good. It's good, but it isn't complete.

But, I didn't cry in happiness. I cried because I know you aren't that kind of person. I know you, and from what happened, I understand that it means you'll go away and never come back to me. So, you all now know what kind of tears do i cried before, huh? It means, sadness and fear about what will my life be, without you?

How could I forget someone who left me such a too sweet message right before he left? I loved you more after read the message. Love has taken everything and controlled even my heart and mind.

Just like what I read in a book someday. Life goes on. There comes time when I missed you like crazy, there comes time when the melody which is brought by the rain makes me insane, crazily missing your 'look outside

and hear, the rain is singing for you'

Truthfully said, I am in the darkness. Even you're near me, I can't feel you, I can't see you. The one who took me into this darkness? it's myself. It's the best way for me, it's the safest place I found to hide myself, to cure my heart. In this darkness, even if I wanna come and lay in your arms, I won't and can't find you, or maybe the reason I hide in this darkness is I don't want to be found. This pain in my heart is growing bigger everytime I stare on the little paper. My heart seems dissapears day by day, make me such a heartless person today.

I desperately need you, and my heart desperately waits you to fulfill what you wrote before. Even until today, I still don't know how to face it. I've counted thousand sheep and still couldn't sleep. You've taken my heart and hid it somewhere I never know. So, please, if you just want to break me, give me my heart back and just leave.

Hey, can you hear me? I hope my wish isn't that big or hard to be true.