Refrain-

Starry and rainy night. I know it's rarely happened. This kind of night turns my mind and heart to you :) aaahh, crazily missing you. But still don't have enough brave to come and see you. You love both rain and star, huh? My deepest heart wish that we can spend this kind of night together, my favorite tea is just too bland without you beside me in such a beautiful night. I wonder what are you doing right now? Have you had your dinner? Or maybe you are watching your favorite TV show right now? aaahh, why do I have to spend days wondering what're you doing and how do you spend your days?

Are you mad at me? That question, I can't stop thinking and asking. I can only staring on a piece of paper, yeaa, the song which is your birthday present, a song which I can never turned it done. You must be angry, you may not want to see me anymore. What kind of man I am? The one who just left after playing such a song? The one who left without any exact reasons. I was afraid, I wasn't sure of myself. What do I have to do if in the end I break your fragile heart? What if I couldn't keep on standing with you through the storm? Could I protect you everytime, be your shelter, be a shoulder to cry on for you? I wasn't sure whether I had enough patience, love, and care, for you.

I know what came to your mind when I left the last part of my song to you. You must think that it's just another lie from me, huh? You always think that I'm that kind of jerk. In fact, I am. I was once too blind to see that you're such special and extraordinary. I was once a coward who didn't dare to try to win your heart. I just kept taking a step back, didn't have any courage to dream and had some faith. I ran away to find all the things I've lost. I ran away to seek all answers for all these questions. This night, I completely understand that I have no reason to keep showing only my back to you, and walking away from you

I don't have any specific reasons to finally come to this decision. My life just seems too empty and plain without you. Water can't heal my thirst, medicine can't heal this pain in my heart because I keep on missing you. And the truth is, the moment I leave you, means the time I hurt you, time I break your heart, and even break mine, too.

Read something interesting yesterday, babe.

"The fastest way to meet our happy ending is to stand close to the things

which make us happy"

and YOU are on the top of the list (PS: you always tell me to never tell lies, right? So I'm telling only the truths LOL) I've done a stupid thing, then, don't you think? I walked away from you who brighten my life, you who give sweetness even to the sugar, you who bring the happiness and bring color to my life. But still, I haven't find a way to come and take a step closer to you, again.

This time, please listen and keep my promise to you. I'll come and find you, will continuously taking care of your heart and feeling, slowly try to draw smiles on your face. For now, let me find a way and gather all my courage, so that I won't disappoint you for another time.

Hey, my favorite thing! blue sky! please do come to me soon, so I won't feel lonely,

'cause I'm feeling blue here.

But for now, since only the rain and stars which come this night. I beg you to hug and comfort her. Please make sure you tell her to wait for me. Thank you.