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Finally, the day has come. Fortunately, I found a piece of courage in the corner of my heart. I had thousand pieces once. But, I've lost 'em all. Kinda stupid, huh? Let the most crucial thing gone When I should keep them close to me and hold tightly. But I am not sure that my courage is enough to talk. I believe I can press all those numbers to just hear your voice, but after hearing your voice? I even didn't dare to imagine what will happen next. Should I wait a little longer and find a bigger courage? After a couple of beeps, bravely I said "Good morning" and heard "Morning" as the answer. My lips got sealed, my mind was freezing, my heart did beat too fast. Ah, I don't know where to start, my courage isn't enough, a voice from nowhere hit me. Finally my choice was, the red button, yeah, ended the phone call.

Been tired of crying. Seconds, minutes, hours, days, week, months, I spent all these times crying and blaming myself. I am not that kind of girl who cries easily over movies, sad endings, tragic scenes, or those melancholy things. Being hurt is the only reason that worth my tears. This house has become so dull, just like what happens to my heart. Taking care of this house? Even I think I don't have any strength to take care of myself. Never imagine you would hurt me like this. I've tried hard to wait, tried hard to believe the 'last piece' thing. But, as 5 months passed, I've lost the last piece of my belief, and my patience, as well. Maybe I have to start a new life without you? Is that maybe the only thing you want me to do?

"They said, we should find an end to finally see a brand new start, but this is what happened in my case, I never try to run because I've finally seen an end in front of me, but I don't want it to be ended like this, I want to go back, fix all the mess, and create a new ending. Everbody deserves for a happy ending? So let me make mine."

That day, when the blue sky showed up its face when it's been rained almost everyday of this month, I reached my decision, My 'birthday song' was sung by my phone. I knew it was you, and without thinking any further, I ran and grabbed my phone, answered it. A voice said "Good morning" and my tears just fell down. Oh, I Wish you can see how I miss you, how I hardly stand with my fragile heart and figt for our story. "Morning". I had thousand questions in my head but I just couldn't ask, I got a liter of anger and disappointment, but I didn't think I should show 'em off. But the, I only heard your sigh, and the call was disconnected. A question popped in my head "what's the meaning of that phone call?" and an answer came "that's the last chance for you to hear his voice. You should stop waiting." search and find your name on my contact list, DELETE. All is done. I should start a new life.

My happy ending? I will live happily with only myself, yeah, that's my happy ending.

P.S. : feliz cumpleaños! dear you little boy :p thanks for all the inspirations and a sweet and lovely journey you once

brought into my life. And last but not least, thanks for being my deadline for this note hahaha. Best wishes. God bless!