dearest you,
From thousand roads in this world, no one can explain why we take the same road along the way.
And from thousand pretty things in this world, we can't never understand why do we stare at the same thing?
They say, coincidence happens, and personally, I love this kind of coincidence.
I love the way I smile all day long, I love thinking of you while listening to a song, I love how funny you walk, I love how you tried to sing every single song you heard, I love the smell of you on my shirt,
and I love you! more like I can't think of any other words :p
Though I don't remember as exact as you do, I did still remember those blink of eyes... your eyes, your expression, and our awkwardness. I never really try to
remember, but my heart did save and capture every moment we had, since our first met.
There is no love at the first sight, I know, but sometimes we can feel the spark. We do know what will happen next but still don't want to make unrealistic expectation.
Everyone told me you aren't the best choice I have, some of them told me we're going too fast, and some other told me I should never choose you.
I know you aren't the best choice I have at this moment. It's a bit too early for me to judge. It's like hhhm, it's been only a few months for us, ya? So, why do I have to worry?
And, yeah, when the other keep talking and asking me about choices, I never stop wondering why I should think about it so soon, nothing will really change even though I've made my decision. Because, when it comes to this, I believe that he should be the one who makes his decision first. When he asks me to choose, I surely will make the choice.
If they say we're going too fast, I do understand, because I think we are. That's why I hold myself tightly, falling slowly, but still cherish every moments I have, with you.
You know? I told myself to walk, but we run. I told myself to stay, but we jump. I took a step away, then you took a step closer.
A concept has just popped in my head recently. It isn't enough for us to only take a step at one time,
we take two or three because we are eager to see the end of this story. We never tell each other about what we think will happen, but I just understand that we both have the same way of think about how to end this story :)
On the other side, I think, even if our story doesn't end up like what's been passing my mind lately, nothing will ever change so much. It's much better than if we end up like what I always want to, but someday in the future, I hurt you or maybe make you stop smiling because of me. I am not trying to say that I don't want to be with you, I just ain't sure with the feeling I feel now.
I know we are good, I know we are doing well, but just give me a little more time to decide, to think, and to ask myself, so that when I make my decision, I come with a right one :)
I know you'll understand what I'm trying to say, and I know that if you're reading this, you'll know it's for you :)
cheers, mr!
ah, ps: happy 11! :)
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