The Right One

the fiction I've dreamt of is finally reality, with you
Fish (Clara C)

In our life, there comes some times when we have to choose. Choosing between to stay in your comfort zone or bravely step out from it, whether you have to take a chance or just let it slip, but mostly, the hardest one is to decide with whom are you gonna spend your life with?
Pardon me for being a free-thinker for a while. I've tried but it's hard to write about this without being 'this' obvious :p

I can't help myself but thinking about everything almost all the time. I hardly listen to others, I hate the way their opinions affect me. I'm a speaker but never a listener. I always think I could live on my own, that even I have this 'special person' I'd still think this way, that special person is there, but I'll still live my path.

They say, we need to be a little mad to be in love. And this guy, totally made a huge mess and madness in my life. I was once an alpha but now a beta :p I usually think much, but now I feel more, I let my heart wins this time. Surprisingly, this guy, is someone who's been so close with me all these times. The 'I fell in love
with my best friend' curse is really worked. LOL. Looking around was never my plan. I look ahead, I've made a list of how my future will be, every single details, oh I'm a real planner. And this guy is totally out of the plan. But who cares? Life is all about finding happiness in every corner of the street, right?

It's not a bad thing to look way afar to the future. I, sometimes, do that, too. But I've learned that it's not always a good thing to do, we're gonna miss great things happen today if we just keep planning. You'll never meet Mr. reality if you keep living in your dreams. I mean, dreaming isn't a bad thing, you know? But hey, you still have to live the reality. To live the life, you have to take the risk to live it. To be with the one you love, you have to take the risk to love. To be in love, you have to let yourself. Look around, not look ahead, play it, not fast-forward it. Every seconds count, every fight, every smile, every tears, every misunderstanding, every hug, and every moment you have, you have to remember and keep the feeling safe right in your heart; the feeling you've got when you're with the one you love. Sometimes you think too much, you look ahead, but it's too far. The person that matter the most for you is most probably the one who's always there, the one who stays through. We've been showered by thousand fairy tales and Disney princesses' stories with all those princes charming and live happily ever after thing.

It takes two to be in love. It's not about you and your own self anymore. You can't simply be happy just because you are, when the happiness comes, you wanna share it with this guy, it's not a happiness if you're happy with your own. A bad day doesn't look that bad when he's there for you. You don't have to be scared anymore, you know you have someone that got your back, you got this guy's hand to hold yours for.. ever. Problems may strike between you both, but then if you do realize the way you both finally got here, and be together, you'll realize that he's worth the fight, and problems aren't the thing you should be afraid of in a relationship. They bring you to a new level of maturity, and help you to know each other better.

I don't know what will happen next. I can't predict everything between me and him. But one thing I know for sure. I'm happy to finally be with him, to end up with him, and I'll cherish everything we have together. Thank  you for everything. I love you, too much (sometimes).